Still Apart of Me

I've been breaking for years,
Its only now that pieces of me,
Pieces of us,
Have started shading away,


I've been drowning for years,
Drowning under this facade of a happy face,
Not letting anybody see,
How hard am fighting
to keep my head above water.


Sad part is that,
You don't even see it,

You don't see how am desperately

trying to keep it together
or how hard am fighting to keep awake,


because am afraid,
Afraid that if I sleep for long enough,
I may never wake up,
because my dreams are better than my reality.


Better... because you're not there.