Give It Back

I stand here, 
and breathe as though the air has never been cleaner.

I stand here, 
watching the sunrise while reflections of my past life fill me with emptiness.

I stand here, 
recalling how you took pieces of me until there was nothing left. 

I stand here, 
on the rooftop of the seventy storey building wondering if I'll die on impact the moment my body hits the ground.

I stand here, 
waiting for something, anything, but only darkness pulls me into this deep hole.

I stand here,
thinking of you... would you stop me if you knew what I was about to do? Or would you give me back my sanity and let me go.

I stand here, 
counting the seconds, until its time... time to finally end it.

I stand here, 
my bones already broken, my heart already rotten empty, my will already stolen.... 

The me that used to occupy this being... stands here,
on top of the building where you stood and took your own life, searching for you to finally free me from my own.

Chained Heart

I lied to you
Sometimes it's as easy as blinking

All those nights I said I slept in peace
I was outside in the cold fighting with the storm

Darkness would engulf me
And pieces of who I used to be
Would fade into the twilight

A phantom now occupies my being
Vengeful, angry and remorseless
The phantom's name is ferocious rage

Once sucked into an illusion of solitude
Now replaced by a faceless ghost
That merges with its shadow in the night
And is afraid of the rays of light

Painfully tight barbed wire chain claps my heart
Squeezing the little life left in me

Tearing the flesh surrounding the wrecked muscle
As splotches of blood and rust, fill the cracked organ
Slowly dying, melting under the sun

But before I go
I must tell you how it began... how it ended... how I died
Because I've been a corpse longer than you know

You see perception can be deceiving
An Illusion of what you want to see
But look closer, look deeper

Do you smell that?
It's the scent of my rotting heart
Hold my hand, do not be afraid

Let me walk you through this
There once was a girl who fell in love...
Isn't that how all great tragic love stories begin...?

Beautiful Heartbreak

Taunting, tormenting, torturous memories 
haunt my nightmares with bloody vengeance 
as ghostly voices echo in the background 
of this broken emptiness that chants your name 

Deathly faces with frightening crow-like eyes 
whisper damaged words 
and I lay... ... 
exposed, open, all yours 
on these dark satin sheets 
crying blood tainted tears 
staring at the leaking ceiling 
as rust engraved dirty droplets of rain 
stream down the skeleton of my rotting flesh 

This beating heart refuses to stop 
as I wait for nature's kindness 
to rip apart my veins 
forever giving me the peace I crave 
as we reunite in the after life 

This dark haunted dungeon 
that used to be our bedroom 
has become my prison 
where I greedily starve for you 
ferociously waiting to take that final bite 

The final bite that will forever set me free 
And end this mortality 
that fate selfishly took you away from.

Gothic Paradise

The darkness whispers your name 
Pulling me deeper into submission 
Past frightening shadows embrace me 
Trying but failing to comfort me 

Echoes of the moonlight create rhythm 
And with it, night crawlers dance along 
Creatures of the night awake 
Crawling, hissing, screaming in buried pain 

Then your daunting face emerges from the grave 
Covered with remnants of death 
Smelling of decaying flesh 
And still, my heart skips a beat 

Not of fear or of fright 
But of passion and of love 
For this gothic paradise you've created 
Where wolves don't cry in the moon 

Gothic paradise that is 
Shunned of human 
Shunned of life 
Shunned of everything that is 'normal' 

Your thin hands clasp my waist 
As you sway and swirl me around 
Dancing along to the tango 
of your dead beating heart 

Magnifying, terrifying 
Breathtaking, horrifying 
Then you pull me into the dark abyss 
The underworld 

Where there is neither good nor evil 
Utopia, our home 
Where goths are not freaks 
And goths are not a cult 

Just ordinary people 
Who dress, feel and behave different 

Open Your Eyes

Look at the way she looks at you
Silently wishing you could see her
Look at the way she tends to your every need
Hoping someday you'll show some appreciation
Look at the way she forces herself to be patient
Because you no longer notice her existence
Look at the way she lifts herself up
Every time you stomp on her
Look at the way
you build up her strength
Then yank it away in dismissal
Look at the way she continues to stick around
Because she loves you

Now watch as she packs to leave
Because she's tired of you taking her for granted
Watch as you try to stop her from walking out of your life
When you didn't notice she was in it before that moment
Watch as you realize how much she means to you
When before she was nothing but an insect in your way
Watch as she ignores your attempts to have her stay

Now slowly, observe as you turn into her
Trying to meet her every need
Only to be shown that its not good enough
Trying to show her how much she means to you
Only to be stomped on
Trying to look at her
But to never really understand

Open your eyes and see her
Because thats all she's ever wanted.

Never Yours

Bury me in innocence
Chain me in captivity
Unlove me in depravity
Carry me in resentment

Take my soul
Consume my heart
Destroy my sight
Yank away my senses

Take away my paper existence
Steal all my liquid dreams
Cripple my earthly fantasies
Own me as if I were yours

Burn me to ashes
Bury me under
Possess me
Take it all

Do whatever you wish
But until am a soulless corpse
I will never be yours.